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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 16:09:59 GMT

i have devised the most descriptively accurate phrase that applies directly to myself.....

ambulatory catastrophe

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 11:01:36 GMT

at times i feel i am a foolish person.......

....i've been offered a chance to do something for myself that i really think would be the best thing that i could ever do to help myself achieve actual happiness.....

....i have been in better health, physically, mentally, emotionally, than i have in a very very long time.......but there seems to be something amiss, very seriously so, and i am feeling it more every day....

...there has been a very strong and visceral desire within me to just drop everything, desist in caring about my responsibilities and obligations to the world in general and people specifically and just walk wherever the wind and smell of potential rain push me to go........

......my thoughts and tastes have been edging more and more to the darkly pleasing things i turned away from for a very long time.....i'm unsure whether to be disturbed by the fact that this does not bother me at all......

...i feel by turns, incredibly independent and fiercely proud of it, and terribly lonely and despairing because of it.....

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 19:34:09 GMT

i am well pleased with myself......today i purchased new pots and pans (since the ones previously being used belong to the roommate who has moved out) which are eco-friendly ;) normally, i don't like buying new things, preferring to go the route of previously owned, but i am very comfortable and happy with this decision....for those who may be confused about what i mean by eco-friendly, here is a bit of explanation.....

"This Eco-Friendly Cookware Set features the latest available technology in PTFE-FREE nonstick coating production to provide consumers an eco-friendly choice. Additionally, all materials selected to produce the eco-friendly cookware embrace the concepts of sustainable design, which means each cookware or packaging component can either return to the natural ecosystem through biodegradation, or be recycled at the end of the product's lifespan."

yes, i have no life, i'm posting about pots and pans.....no, i don't care that this makes me look pathetic ;)

Friday, June 13, 2008

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 13:24:09 GMT

two days ago some kids threw a brick through one of the windows of the library where i work.....because they got kicked out for being jerkoffs who couldn't be respectful of the library rules....

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 14:14:49 GMT

this is my shamelessly advertising for a particular band post.....feel free to skip at will......

you really ought to check out this band, called from tomorrows.....they are incredibly talented (in my opinion) and i would love to see them become very successful....before it is pointed out by someone else, yes, i will admit that i have reason to be biased in my appreciative opinion.....the drummer is a dear friend of mine....an adopted brother, if you will..........however i can honestly say that even setting that aside, i'm very impressed with these guys! so....if you value my opinion in matters musical...at least take a listen, and if you like, please let them know....they deserve it ;)

you can hear their work on their myspace, and they also have an actual webpage.....

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Tue, 27 May 2008 04:32:06 GMT

just a couple of things i'd like to dash off for those of you who are interested in these sorts of things......

....i have posted some new artwork, if you don't know how to get there, ask and ye shall recieve direction....

....i have created a new photo album of mine child, those who wish to be able to view it and have not already recieved an email from me regarding this may assume that A. i was not aware you would be interested and/or B. i sent you an email but do not have your current address.....in either case, let me know and i will remedy the situation with all possible haste......

....that's it for today, hopefully will recover enough from the events of the past two weeks to write something of a bit more substance and (hopefully) interest sometime soon.......

Monday, May 19, 2008

Mon, 19 May 2008 10:56:14 GMT

since i won't be going to work in the forseeable future.....
	i will inflict upon you some thoughts penned by my favourite author, kurt vonnegut........ * I am eternally grateful.. for my knack of finding in great books, some of them very funny books, reason enough to feel honored to be alive, no matter what else might be going on. * We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be. * New knowledge is the most valuable commodity on earth. The more truth we have to work with, the richer we become. * We could have saved the Earth but we were too damned cheap. * Find a subject you care about and which you feel others should care about. It is this genuine caring, and not your games with language, which will be the most compelling and seductive element in your style. * We are healthy only to the extent that our ideas are humane.

since i won't be going to work in the forseeable future.....

i will inflict upon you some thoughts penned by my favourite author, kurt vonnegut........

* I am eternally grateful.. for my knack of finding in great books, some of them very funny books, reason enough to feel honored to be alive, no matter what else might be going on.

* We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be.

* New knowledge is the most valuable commodity on earth. The more truth we have to work with, the richer we become.

* We could have saved the Earth but we were too damned cheap.

* Find a subject you care about and which you feel others should care about. It is this genuine caring, and not your games with language, which will be the most compelling and seductive element in your style.

* We are healthy only to the extent that our ideas are humane.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Mon, 19 May 2008 01:24:20 GMT

today i had the most humiliating experience of my entire lifetime

i'm finding that i i'm really ok with that, although it's possible i'm just too tired to care at this point

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Thu, 15 May 2008 12:28:16 GMT

hey there, all....

i know it's been a little while since i have written anything here, not that i think most people are particularly perturbed by that......but for those anticipate/expecting an explanation, i can only say that i have been reading....a lot......and that i have this strange condition which cause me to become obssessively interested in specific subjects, which subsequently causes me to read any and everything i can possible find on them......which, blast it all, takes up a great deal of the time not already devoted to mine child or mine employer.....

i have become both more well-informed and more interested in/curious about the following.....druidic christology....mental/personality disorders including did, bipoler, schizophrenia, autism and similar...and attempting to learn *slowly* several languages.....myths, folklore, and legends from various parts of the world......serial murder.......lobotomies, both the people who underwent them as well as those who developed/performed them.....

yesterday i went to a class for my job....the basic premise of it was to help you 'discover' your 'true color' and learn how you can interact more effectively with others (fellow employees, customers, etc.)....and so i found out what i already knew (i just didn't know what it was called haha), which is that i am a green....although i do have to say that at least now i don't feel like such an anti-social troll for being somewhat irritated or resentful when i have to stop reading and rejoin the real world.......

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 15:25:38 GMT

in the past two months, i have...

...completely botched an opportunity to get to know a very interesting person due to either my lack of social skills or my ineptitude in the art of discerning that i am being flirted with while at work (or possibly some weird combination of the two)...

...played a ridiculous amount of phone tag with a friend whose life and schedule seem to be exactly opposite mine...

...developed an intense interest in the history of (and biographies of persons who have had) transorbital lobotomies...

...attended my daughter's first school play...

...felt as if i have not been a good enough friend to some...

...been overwhelmed by the energy drained by some of the commitments to/relationships with people in my life...

...set and embarked upon a goal for myself to learn how to say 'thank you' and 'you're welcome' in as many different languages as i can...

...volunteered to participate in the hearwalk through my job...

...begun doing outdoor work, including preparing my garden area for herb and vegetable planting...

...discovered, tried, and liked a cheese i had never previously known...

...hoped and waited for something to happen and slowly become increasingly dispirirted that it has not...